Ok list of complaints for today -Feeling depressed and anxious again after a period of smooth sailing -job search is completely pointless for me yet the gubberment wont fuck off and leave me to my own devices -Gubberment cut my welfare in half because I didnt go to a conference that I had no way of getting to -Constantly feel sick all the time but I am perfectly fine -My armpit is fucking gross as hell, lumps all over the place. I hope it aint somethin serious but oh well -need to re-sit my learner license test but performance anxiety destroys me every time -even if I get my learner license I will have no car to drive -Want to start going to a gym, If I dont take care of myself now im going to die in my 40s So in short, i want to die pretty much. I've fucked my life up so much over just a 5 year period. I am an idiot. All my positive momentum from therapy is just evaporating by the day.